Have to force myself to go out this afternoon. I've already cancelled one appointment today but I need to go to this one. I can't communicate, can't talk properly, I'm getting confused with my words and am afraid I'll look a prat.

It's not for anything major, just a haircut. I know I'll feel better for going because I'm constantly feeling that I'm a mess. They chat a lot tho.

If tch isn't home in half an hour with the car though I'll not be able to go anyway. Do I wish for that so as to stay here? Oh, I just want to go back to my bed and stay there. It's all shit atm.